Sold my first painting recently and it got me wondering the value of things. I want more time for myself. I want more time with my best friend whose leaving sg to chase after her dreams. I want more time with my boyfriend. (what nonsense, we are in the same class but still) I want to spend more time with people I do care about. I am making the right decision. I know I am. I sneaked into the Fine Arts studio to steal an easel last afternoon and I knew it. I know I am making the right choices. I can’t imagine being anywhere else. This is what I want to do. This is where I want to go. I am where I should be. Joey isn’t beautiful but this is what I can do and believe in. For fucking once, I believe, I can make it. It’s late Joey, go to bed. Put down your brushes. Rest your obsession and just go to bed.

school’s over. I did well. Fuck the rest. HELL YES!

I think one of the greatest thing in life, is performing with my best friends. Wherever you guys are, don’t ever give up on music. Keep playing. Especially Dale, lili and Leum. I love you guys oh so fucking much. 

Never dwell in the thoughts of others. Be confident about what you know and how you feel. No one knows them better than you. 

I am very clear now.

I want you to fight for me.

Today, I miss you so much that I am not even myself at all.

Je te cherche quand tu n’es pas là
Dans une semaine je reviendrais
Je perds mon souffle quand tu t’en vas
Je m’imagine à tes côtés
Même si j’essaie de l’ignorer
Tu es toujours là dans mes pensées
Tryin to figure out the time zones makin me crazy

The price to find yourselves is to lose yourselves. And during the process, not everybody can take it. 

I am tired of games.